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Monday, August 27, 2007

I have quitted my yamaha course after some considerations. I told my teacher today and it was nevertheless quite sad, after learning since november under her. It's not overwhelming though, it's just some slight awkward feeling becoz there's a change in something which you are going to stop doing for a few years perhaps? and life is as short as a few decades.

I havent been to my godmother house for ages now. I should go sometime next week i think, she has been looking after me since 18years ago, and that gratefulness towards her will never dissipate. What can we young ones do for those elderly who cared for us when we were helpless last time? With much of our lives being filled with more things to do, caring and spending time with the older generation will never be one of the most fun things to do, i believe most people agree? And much as we put their love in our minds and hearts, these love will never reach them if we don show any action. We can think that as long as they'r in our hearts, it's ok, but to me, it seriously doesnt, we have to repay their love of actions with those of our own.

When there's an unfortunate dismise, friends console that if they have those who passed on in their heart, it's ok, but it's just becoz they cant do anything more, so that's the only way to feel better.

After being a group of friends for afew years, it can be said that we know each other very well, and thats what it takes to feel, thats some true friends. To know another person inside out isnt easy, but thats what we all want in friends. People which we trust and people whom trust us.

What do people think about smoking? well, there's no definite answer, it's subjective, so is every right and wrong in this world. Is revenging wrong? Is showing anger wrong? Is shunting from all bad influrence right? There are no answer to these questions that will coincide among everyone. But when someone thinks that something some friend is doing is wrong, there are bound to be concerns. And i just hope he gets the message from that friend, instead of just trying to shrug it off that he's just bored and are doing that for fun.

At 18, we have our own mindset, our own guage onto what is right and what is wrong. We are less prone to influrences and less tolerant to other opinions which directly oppose our own.

Just sharing

There are times when i feel like shouting out all the troubles, worries, disappointments etc. out. There's just this feeling that by shouting, you'll feel better. And that's why i appreciate X Japan music. They're kind of a jap rock band singing love songs, songs of sadness, songs of hope. These are the feelings we dread and wish in life. We feel for these and this band sings it in a way that really gets through to all humans. These are vids from youtube on their last live concert in tokyo, 1997. They disbanded then, after afew years of achievements being together. I mean, how can they not be successful, their music and songs are so full of emotions, and their last live concert just blows people off. Listen to the people singing along, their sadness that they're going to disband, it is just sensational, these is probably the highest achievement a group of musicians can achieve.

Endless Rain

Forever Love

Tears

Btw, in july this year, the two leaders accounced that they will be regrping and talks with the other two members are on, unfortunately, their guitarist hide died in 1998 with a promising future.

Kencsh blogged at 2:33 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

On the 20th of August, i'll be sitting for my Automation paper.

On the 22nd of August, i'll be sitting for my Power E paper.

After these two papers, i'll have 3 years break from studies, embarking on my National Service journey.

Mark's house

Mark's house is more or less the house that most of us frequent the most, for studies, for tonning, for drinking, for eating, anything and anywhen we feel like doing something as a group of friends. We used to tonned for games, drink, play board games, ps2, watever comes into mind, and he'll be shifting soon. Have you actually wonder what a house brings? I shifted once when i was 10, unwillingly but a must due to some financial reasons, and whenever i steps into my old neighbourhood, it feels close, cosy and homey. A place where my childhood memories occurs, a place where i grew hopping around and fussing that my dad should carry me to the market. There was once i brought my bolster to the hawker centre, how hilarious was that, but these things became our memories which we cherish because we know we will never do that again. Whilst not doing something again means a close extinction to a personal behaviour, it just means that we will never experience it again, and that makes it so precious. Somethings done foolishly may seem silly, but these are the things that we'll look upon at later stages and miss dearly.

Time flies when no memories are instilled into our brains, as we moves on in life without occurance of what we did prior to this present day.

Relationship

Will you continue a relationship that leads to nothing? or that it wouldnt work out? People nowadays hang out for company, loniness is so much harder to bare now for modern people as we crave for fun and happenings. But it always make me wonder why people enter a relationship they see no future, it's like a short-term relief and when time's up, just say good-bye. What kind of relationship can that be, in a sense, we can see it as deriving experiences on this aspect, but isn't a relationship suppose to be everlasting? at least, trying to be everlasting? What is love nowadays to people? Is it just to find a pretty girl or a handsome guy to hang out with? Or is it the concern we have for someone that everything she or he do reflects much in our own lives as we dread to see them suffer, or celebrate with joy to see them achieve.

I have a quote from a friend. "Pretty is always an advantage, if i get angry, means i lost". With the media now always portraying pretty babes and handsome hunks, many of us rates appearance highly, so much so that it becomes some sort of status. Similiar to shopping for objects we like, we can say that it is natural to like something that look nice and often overlook the personality. Some people would also discriminate people that doesn't look that good, often "joking" sinisterly which can basically just be from the bottem of their hearts actually. It is the influrence that cultivates our behavior and i myself believes it has to do with appearance as well. With appearance comes comments, from comments comes evaluations, from evaluations comes analysis and eventually turning out to be behaviors. Somethings cant be chosen, and all things cant be lucky. I wonder what would this world be if everyone wears a permanent mask. Will it be a better world? For every person feels and perhaps really do get a fairer chance, standing on equal footing.

It speaks volume in that sentence, it is not that that friend of mine look ugly, she's adorable, but that sentence really do show her great inner self.

Kencsh blogged at 2:14 AM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

It's Closing in, the end of my tertiary, studies aspect that is, i'll be having my IAP then FYP before completing my course still.

Tests week, Wednesday's test was ok, considering that no many people actually found the communication and networking paper easy, becoz it wasnt... 1st, it's more of memory work, 2nd, it's how you describe the OSI Model thing. I find that i messed the paper up, and i usually feel gutted, but somehow, this sem, i took things easier, perhaps better, perhaps not. The communication skills test was a breeze though, except for my ill-hinged table that killed my back, i lied on the bench for afew minutes, closing in an hour after the test! Such terrible pain.

Friday was worse, Marketing was ok, simple enough, but not that idiotic Tong's Equiz! Yes "Idiotic". Lemme Explain

She gave questions not taught to us in any time this sem, she gave questions not relating to automation, she never gave us a spearhead to study on, she just simple sucked. Why would someone give questions from year 2 (not all, thats what she said anyway), when we are in year 3 and never touch it anymore? Come on, students now don remember what they study after studying. Even if she's doing this to help improve Singapore's educational system, she should at least told us! What did she want to achieve with this? Ohh Tong, I heard your automation is difficult!!! Your standard is high huh? Brillant! From other lecturers? Also, when every other modules consider students need of concentrating on exams, and finishes projects by week 16 or so, she gave projects on week 16, another wonderful deed. Worse off, she gave a similiar project to what we did in term 1 that made us rush out a 100pages report. wth? what is this mad woman thinking, if she wants to do these, at least prepare the students for it, it is nescessary. I have alot to complain about her man. She is that sort of teacher that makes assumptions as well, you ask her a question, she reckons you are dumb, donno how to do. Ohh please, it's an intelligent question for intelligent lecturer to answer, don just assume and say, your I/O sure no mistake, i check alot of times already, no one's asking about I/O mind you, it's your dam piece of paper that's confusing, giving people things that i bet, other people's work, which contradicts your own system now. Dam this lecturer, As to Loy, i wonder how can some of my classmates like them, totally sick. Loy must have been quite a corrupted lecturer i think, that's why they liked him, i bet my life on that, becoz they were so happy when they mistakenly tot he's taking our group for HTML test, saying... Woo!!! sure pass liao!!! Nothing much against them, everyone will wish for that, but that says alot about a lecturer.

That felt much better.

NYP Guitar Club will be having a three weeks break, due to examinations, there're like so many breaks already it really corrupts the flow of the practices. I wanna change the Concert Date, December's too close to exams, as experienced last year, and resuming practice on September leaves November just 2 months away, too close for comfort. Shall get things sorted out in September.

Today's CJC exchange wasnt as desireable, El Choco's intro screwed up and Ai No Kurashi didnt sound really great at all... Didnt really feel good the whole day, went back for dinner before going out to meet old friends at Ice Cube. Long time since i met Adrian, we were good friends in sec 3, playing basketball practically everyday in Toa Payoh after school, but somethings happened and we just didnt talk again. I was branded a GF stealer for nothing, i'm sure i didnt do anything, but at that time, he felt so and told his other friends, who would just randomly mention it. Cant be bothered. Anyway, what my other friends said when they saw him last week were kinda true, he got a Rubber Aura, due to sleepy eyes i think. i'm glad the issue's over, time heals most of the things.

What would you do when you go out with friends who needs a lift home?

It really puzzles me and frustrates me sometimes.

Lets say you are a passenger, how would you feel when drivers discusses who wanna fetch u back? esp when one seems alittle reluctant yet know it'll be difficult for the other friend to drive a loop... If i am that passenger, i would probably feel that i'm a burden, shudnt be here to trouble them. Not quite a good feeling isnt it?

A(Hougang) driver tells B(AMK) driver to send ToaPayoh Serangoon and Aljunied, while A driver send SengKang and Hougang, but A driver knows B drivers gonna travel far if that's the case. Somehow, A driver still reluctant to send Aljunied back which will be easier for B driver. So Aljunied is sandwiched, B driver didnt mind but A driver feels bad. In the end, Aljunied decided to follow B driver. I just tot the ideal case is A driver send Aljunied SengKang Hougang and B driver send TPY Serangoon becoz SengKang and Hougang's so near -.-" well, i cant teach people what to do, not anymore, but i just feel, "got it to be like that? so disadvantaged minded"

Just some rants, here's a clip i found it nice when my friend told me about it last time.

Kencsh blogged at 12:34 AM


	Momenories of Life "Momenories" meaning "Moments and Memories" Cherish the Moments Relish the Memories Kencsh NAME: Kenneth SEX: M DOB: 14/10/1988 LOCATION: Singapore (Hougang) Old Blog Day, Night, Dusk, Dawn, Life Continues Links Baz Darren Eugene Hui Ling Jane Jin Hui Jing En Joe Lydia NYP Guitar Club Sherilyn Suhaila Syarah Xin Ni Yvonne Zhi Xiong Archives January 2007 March 2007 April 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 March 2008 May 2008 December 2008 Tagboard Music Credits Skin by: sixseven Powered by: blogger		Monday, August 27, 2007 I have quitted my yamaha course after some considerations. I told my teacher today and it was nevertheless quite sad, after learning since november under her. It's not overwhelming though, it's just some slight awkward feeling becoz there's a change in something which you are going to stop doing for a few years perhaps? and life is as short as a few decades. I havent been to my godmother house for ages now. I should go sometime next week i think, she has been looking after me since 18years ago, and that gratefulness towards her will never dissipate. What can we young ones do for those elderly who cared for us when we were helpless last time? With much of our lives being filled with more things to do, caring and spending time with the older generation will never be one of the most fun things to do, i believe most people agree? And much as we put their love in our minds and hearts, these love will never reach them if we don show any action. We can think that as long as they'r in our hearts, it's ok, but to me, it seriously doesnt, we have to repay their love of actions with those of our own. When there's an unfortunate dismise, friends console that if they have those who passed on in their heart, it's ok, but it's just becoz they cant do anything more, so that's the only way to feel better. After being a group of friends for afew years, it can be said that we know each other very well, and thats what it takes to feel, thats some true friends. To know another person inside out isnt easy, but thats what we all want in friends. People which we trust and people whom trust us. What do people think about smoking? well, there's no definite answer, it's subjective, so is every right and wrong in this world. Is revenging wrong? Is showing anger wrong? Is shunting from all bad influrence right? There are no answer to these questions that will coincide among everyone. But when someone thinks that something some friend is doing is wrong, there are bound to be concerns. And i just hope he gets the message from that friend, instead of just trying to shrug it off that he's just bored and are doing that for fun. At 18, we have our own mindset, our own guage onto what is right and what is wrong. We are less prone to influrences and less tolerant to other opinions which directly oppose our own. Just sharing There are times when i feel like shouting out all the troubles, worries, disappointments etc. out. There's just this feeling that by shouting, you'll feel better. And that's why i appreciate X Japan music. They're kind of a jap rock band singing love songs, songs of sadness, songs of hope. These are the feelings we dread and wish in life. We feel for these and this band sings it in a way that really gets through to all humans. These are vids from youtube on their last live concert in tokyo, 1997. They disbanded then, after afew years of achievements being together. I mean, how can they not be successful, their music and songs are so full of emotions, and their last live concert just blows people off. Listen to the people singing along, their sadness that they're going to disband, it is just sensational, these is probably the highest achievement a group of musicians can achieve. Endless Rain Forever Love Tears Btw, in july this year, the two leaders accounced that they will be regrping and talks with the other two members are on, unfortunately, their guitarist hide died in 1998 with a promising future. Kencsh blogged at 2:33 AM Friday, August 17, 2007 On the 20th of August, i'll be sitting for my Automation paper. On the 22nd of August, i'll be sitting for my Power E paper. After these two papers, i'll have 3 years break from studies, embarking on my National Service journey. Mark's house Mark's house is more or less the house that most of us frequent the most, for studies, for tonning, for drinking, for eating, anything and anywhen we feel like doing something as a group of friends. We used to tonned for games, drink, play board games, ps2, watever comes into mind, and he'll be shifting soon. Have you actually wonder what a house brings? I shifted once when i was 10, unwillingly but a must due to some financial reasons, and whenever i steps into my old neighbourhood, it feels close, cosy and homey. A place where my childhood memories occurs, a place where i grew hopping around and fussing that my dad should carry me to the market. There was once i brought my bolster to the hawker centre, how hilarious was that, but these things became our memories which we cherish because we know we will never do that again. Whilst not doing something again means a close extinction to a personal behaviour, it just means that we will never experience it again, and that makes it so precious. Somethings done foolishly may seem silly, but these are the things that we'll look upon at later stages and miss dearly. Time flies when no memories are instilled into our brains, as we moves on in life without occurance of what we did prior to this present day. Relationship Will you continue a relationship that leads to nothing? or that it wouldnt work out? People nowadays hang out for company, loniness is so much harder to bare now for modern people as we crave for fun and happenings. But it always make me wonder why people enter a relationship they see no future, it's like a short-term relief and when time's up, just say good-bye. What kind of relationship can that be, in a sense, we can see it as deriving experiences on this aspect, but isn't a relationship suppose to be everlasting? at least, trying to be everlasting? What is love nowadays to people? Is it just to find a pretty girl or a handsome guy to hang out with? Or is it the concern we have for someone that everything she or he do reflects much in our own lives as we dread to see them suffer, or celebrate with joy to see them achieve. I have a quote from a friend. "Pretty is always an advantage, if i get angry, means i lost". With the media now always portraying pretty babes and handsome hunks, many of us rates appearance highly, so much so that it becomes some sort of status. Similiar to shopping for objects we like, we can say that it is natural to like something that look nice and often overlook the personality. Some people would also discriminate people that doesn't look that good, often "joking" sinisterly which can basically just be from the bottem of their hearts actually. It is the influrence that cultivates our behavior and i myself believes it has to do with appearance as well. With appearance comes comments, from comments comes evaluations, from evaluations comes analysis and eventually turning out to be behaviors. Somethings cant be chosen, and all things cant be lucky. I wonder what would this world be if everyone wears a permanent mask. Will it be a better world? For every person feels and perhaps really do get a fairer chance, standing on equal footing. It speaks volume in that sentence, it is not that that friend of mine look ugly, she's adorable, but that sentence really do show her great inner self. Kencsh blogged at 2:14 AM Sunday, August 05, 2007 It's Closing in, the end of my tertiary, studies aspect that is, i'll be having my IAP then FYP before completing my course still. Tests week, Wednesday's test was ok, considering that no many people actually found the communication and networking paper easy, becoz it wasnt... 1st, it's more of memory work, 2nd, it's how you describe the OSI Model thing. I find that i messed the paper up, and i usually feel gutted, but somehow, this sem, i took things easier, perhaps better, perhaps not. The communication skills test was a breeze though, except for my ill-hinged table that killed my back, i lied on the bench for afew minutes, closing in an hour after the test! Such terrible pain. Friday was worse, Marketing was ok, simple enough, but not that idiotic Tong's Equiz! Yes "Idiotic". Lemme Explain She gave questions not taught to us in any time this sem, she gave questions not relating to automation, she never gave us a spearhead to study on, she just simple sucked. Why would someone give questions from year 2 (not all, thats what she said anyway), when we are in year 3 and never touch it anymore? Come on, students now don remember what they study after studying. Even if she's doing this to help improve Singapore's educational system, she should at least told us! What did she want to achieve with this? Ohh Tong, I heard your automation is difficult!!! Your standard is high huh? Brillant! From other lecturers? Also, when every other modules consider students need of concentrating on exams, and finishes projects by week 16 or so, she gave projects on week 16, another wonderful deed. Worse off, she gave a similiar project to what we did in term 1 that made us rush out a 100pages report. wth? what is this mad woman thinking, if she wants to do these, at least prepare the students for it, it is nescessary. I have alot to complain about her man. She is that sort of teacher that makes assumptions as well, you ask her a question, she reckons you are dumb, donno how to do. Ohh please, it's an intelligent question for intelligent lecturer to answer, don just assume and say, your I/O sure no mistake, i check alot of times already, no one's asking about I/O mind you, it's your dam piece of paper that's confusing, giving people things that i bet, other people's work, which contradicts your own system now. Dam this lecturer, As to Loy, i wonder how can some of my classmates like them, totally sick. Loy must have been quite a corrupted lecturer i think, that's why they liked him, i bet my life on that, becoz they were so happy when they mistakenly tot he's taking our group for HTML test, saying... Woo!!! sure pass liao!!! Nothing much against them, everyone will wish for that, but that says alot about a lecturer. That felt much better. NYP Guitar Club will be having a three weeks break, due to examinations, there're like so many breaks already it really corrupts the flow of the practices. I wanna change the Concert Date, December's too close to exams, as experienced last year, and resuming practice on September leaves November just 2 months away, too close for comfort. Shall get things sorted out in September. Today's CJC exchange wasnt as desireable, El Choco's intro screwed up and Ai No Kurashi didnt sound really great at all... Didnt really feel good the whole day, went back for dinner before going out to meet old friends at Ice Cube. Long time since i met Adrian, we were good friends in sec 3, playing basketball practically everyday in Toa Payoh after school, but somethings happened and we just didnt talk again. I was branded a GF stealer for nothing, i'm sure i didnt do anything, but at that time, he felt so and told his other friends, who would just randomly mention it. Cant be bothered. Anyway, what my other friends said when they saw him last week were kinda true, he got a Rubber Aura, due to sleepy eyes i think. i'm glad the issue's over, time heals most of the things. What would you do when you go out with friends who needs a lift home? It really puzzles me and frustrates me sometimes. Lets say you are a passenger, how would you feel when drivers discusses who wanna fetch u back? esp when one seems alittle reluctant yet know it'll be difficult for the other friend to drive a loop... If i am that passenger, i would probably feel that i'm a burden, shudnt be here to trouble them. Not quite a good feeling isnt it? A(Hougang) driver tells B(AMK) driver to send ToaPayoh Serangoon and Aljunied, while A driver send SengKang and Hougang, but A driver knows B drivers gonna travel far if that's the case. Somehow, A driver still reluctant to send Aljunied back which will be easier for B driver. So Aljunied is sandwiched, B driver didnt mind but A driver feels bad. In the end, Aljunied decided to follow B driver. I just tot the ideal case is A driver send Aljunied SengKang Hougang and B driver send TPY Serangoon becoz SengKang and Hougang's so near -.-" well, i cant teach people what to do, not anymore, but i just feel, "got it to be like that? so disadvantaged minded" Just some rants, here's a clip i found it nice when my friend told me about it last time. Kencsh blogged at 12:34 AM