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Friday, June 29, 2007

My father used to tell me that friends in this world are hard to come by, and that friends would betray you when troubles come about. That may be becoz he was betrayed before, but it's not totally untrue.

When there's a common goal between two person, they are great friends, helping each other to reach the goal.

Yet, when that goal disappears, it can be inevitable that the relationship changes, without a common goal, some people just don view that partner as a great friend anymore, and when some conflicts come about, it is the end of the friendship. How true is this? Are all humans selfish in nature?

In the television, witty guys are often portrayed as successful, while the dumb as pitiful.

In the television, bad guys are usually rich and successful, they can betray the world, harm everyone and gain that success. Only to fail in the end to retribution to have a nice ending.

In the television, good guys will be shown, forcefully to betray their friends to preserve their rice bowl, the source of money, dreamed as endless happiness, realistically the core of evil.

These sources teaches people to be "realistic". Which means, it is only right to think for yourself when troubles come, to save yourself when either has to perish.

When we are young, the world look so innocent, you just snatch for toys, quarrel for justice and work your principles.

But as we grow older, we value success much more and see wealth as having a nice life with lesser worries. So do all humans become more selfish as they grow older?

Does the good get repaid with good deeds, and the bad retributions? Or

Does the good get swallowed, and the bad, success?

Poly teaches me a few things like snoozing, and laze on the bed as it gives u the happiness of sleeping which can be so desirable at times. Yet, with characters all around, it tends to show me the two sides of life.

A group, a carefree group, never bothering about studies as much, feels that life are about being happy, and happy is about being carefree. Lazy at times, but always helping each other when exams comes about.

Another, a success group, have fun when fun are due, and serious when work are due. Happy together when times are up, finding each other a burden when things are down. Never showing the schemes, but says some behind the curtains.

Mixing with two groups questions something, which group would you like? which group do you belong? which group do you dread? which group do you like.

In Poly, i have not been the serious guy i used to be in secondary school. I can accept and tolerate more things now. But it isn't necessary good.

In Secondary, i'm a serious guy, quite no nonsense, lives on my principles, do wrong things? scold, need help? help, bad character? go to hell. Basically imposing my character and principles in my group of friends

In Poly, i'm a go along, there are some people i wouldnt even bother talking to if i were in my sec days, becoz i would have rated their personality, but i do now. I don really care what they are doing, and i don bother rating their doings. They think it's right, it's right, if it's wrong, it's wrong. I couldn't really be bothered much, i would only try to appease everyone to the best i can.

The difference? the friends i have in secondary perhaps knows me more in depth, while some poly friends i feel, wouldnt be as close after graduation. And i think that's why some people tells me they prefer secondary school days more... Secondary school pretty much gives students a common goal, the O'levels, not much conflict, you play as a class, you study as a class. Poly is more to groups or individuals...

My mentality broke down for awhile in Year 2, so much so that i needed to feel some support (which results in a fallout). Somehow, some friends in Poly just gives you this insecure feeling, that they would be ready to heck care if really, one day, a serious problem come about. And it shows during group work or exams.

I'm in both groups i said above, closer to the latter group, but when exams come, the latter would view the other group as a burden, and will be great to avoid them. So i'm quite sandwiched. Only in fine time can both groups be together, weird isn't it? Fine, happy together, fun together, Exams, enemies?

Thats why i'm confused, i'm closer to them, but i dislike some of the personality. Will i be the same? or am i already the same? i hope not, and pray not.

What my father said isn't without any truth, but when times are good, everything will be good, when times are bad, we'll see...

Today, it's funny, the term "realistic" actually becomes hostile. We were doing a report, a 100 pages report. I'm doing alone, my partner went to msia -.-" and my other two friends are a group, we did in one of their house. There were some glimpses of self content, like, hiding? I tot we were supposed to do together, anyway, i don mind people actually seeing and copying my work, i would happily help, but when such hints shows up when i just take alittle look, it kicks me a little. It's like, you HELP them before, and they wouldnt even SHARE things with you now. Thats why i wrote this article. I'm not angry, but alittle disappointed.

They started the don help u thingy as a joke, but that also means that it came across their mind, even at the slightest. I would say, not both, but at least one of them have this selfish personality.

What does it tells you when someone finish the work 1st, send to the teacher and friends through email without filtering both? Work shouldnt be copied, and so shouldnt be referenced, no one asked for it, but as the way he sent, it seemingly says, hey, i'm the original - to the teacher. Maybe it's me thinking too much into little stuffs, but it isn't hard to think of that in the teacher's shoes? isn't it? i would have considered that and if my friends wants to reference, i would send them in BCC.

Kencsh blogged at 11:05 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

I'm back! After two months which can be described as the "hectic-est" poly life i have ever experienced. I have passed my driving lisence and lose it almost immediately, i have not touched my guitar as often as i used to which many of my friends would wow me, i have experience being a performer in the esplanade concert hall which is supposedly the best in singapore, i have realised that it isn't easy to be at the helm of things without planning for it. There're so much for me to write on in these two months which time doesnt allow me during then, as much as i would have love to have them written down, my brain wouldn't allow me to store every detail in my "pea-like" memory... Especially this year, i am those kind of people that pressure and stress out myself easily on things, and when i have more responsibilities, coupled by a specific Sherilyn who spreads her STM disease to me :/, my memory is like so terrible now! i could forget what i said 5minutes ago, scary yea? haha... i need to grad soon and take a care-free break!

I'm in my two weeks examination break now, i have a test next week which i havent studied, neither did i do my 100 pages report or interview related stuffs that has to be done within these two weeks. I just tried to rest myself, but failed to do so.

Examination Break

It started off with camp guitare, NYP Guitar Club's camp and a 3D2N chalet. It should be the 1st ever, at least the 1st in my 2years+ stay in NYP. I have wanted this all along, because the time spent between seniors and juniors in the past few years hasn't been great, we would probably know each other only during our annual concert, La Guitare. To be honest, i felt my batch was fortunate, we got close to each other near the 05 concert, thanks to batch 9 seniors (we're batch 11) and Huiwen who is such a chatterbox! But when batch 9 grad-ed, batch 10 suddenly suffered a lost of membership, whereby their active members were in the single digit. So i think it was hard for the committee, to plan stuffs, as i have experienced now, Year 3 isn't the same as 1 and 2, you have more work which gets you busy most of the time, and if u have gotten used to Year 1 and 2's lifestyle, you'r in some depthless hole. So i felt and realised Batch 12 was suffering, there donno each other well even after the concert, many are in their small groups which i felt shouldnt be the case. That's why i visioned such an event just after the Enrichment Course.

Traditionally, NYP Guitar Club enjoys a high appeal to students as people nowadays are keen on learning music. That's the reason i joined as well - to learn, i did not have any background before then. So there'll probably be around 150 people who join the Enrichment Course. But, as we all know, much as we would love to be able to play or create music - because we feel emotionally for music, it doesn't come just like that, it takes time and practice to be able to play music well, so some people would give up, thinking they aren't cut out for it or that their interest just diminished, prefering to do other stuffs. So i felt we could do something to help encourage them during their learning process, till they are able to achieve what they intended as they join the club.

So the camp is for them to get to know each other better, and with that bond, gives them a sense of belonging towards the club, and at the same time, exposing them to guitar, what can they all learn together in this club, ensemble, solo, quartet etc. So that they would have an idea where they can be and do in 2 - 3 years.

I couldnt plan for the camp though, there were reasons, 1st, i was tight up with my stuffs, ICAs in school which i could easily over stress myself out and the esplanade performance with TPGC which i skipped 3 practice sessions and found myself struggling. 2nd, it was meant for the batch 12 to plan, but they'r so splitted up. 3rd, they formed the layout and the only thing that needed more planning was the games, and my friends like the games more, so i didnt want to interrupt them.

Eventually, the camp turned out quite messy, but i'm sure some of us will find fun out of it, being the 1st, it will only be better.

The chalet was at the senior police academy mass, Hui Wen's father booked it for us, an unique experience, don think many people could have gotten that place, cheap and not too run down at all. Just deserted. i'm the CD, Cab Driver or smt, we did shopping and so on, makan stuff baa baa, it was fun nevertheless. Thursday early morning, near midnight, one of my friend went drinking and her friend called to fetch her back, so i went... Sin Jyh, Christina, Kelvin followed me. Once we reached there, she didnt want to go, saying she wanna stay with her friend -.-" so why did she just laugh when her friend ask us to fetch her back? after a long tussle, we tot ok, we head back, but as i was going back, i tot, they drank, it wouldnt be nice if two of them, both girls stayed there, so i went back and asked to fetch her friend hm 1st, then bring her back to chalet. It was a joke really, she had earlier told me she going to accompany a friend who has trouble, but she ended up looking more drank, fine, everyone has their own troubles, money, friends, bgr, family baa baa, but we don have to do that right? why cant they be stronger? is it the TV that we tend to learn from? I eventually got quite fed up, i felt that it was dumb and got of with some scolding.. why cant her friend go hm with us? and everything will be fine? how can she expect her best friend to leave with us, and she, alone out there? and the other, keep saying she wanna vomit, as though i have nv drink b4, the way she is doesnt show me she will vomit at all. So i am facing lies, and silence when i enquire about the stuffs, everyone got their problems... take it in ur stride! maybe i learned last time, and so it's easier for me now, i hope they will be more sobber next time, spend time doing better stuffs. She explained why her friend donwanna lemme send her back, she say... back pain, but her friend walked away from us for quite a distance, till she disappeared, quite amazing right -.-" donno how to believe. Just an account.

We eventually brought her back, and Christina, who drank half a breezer from Sin Jyh when waiting for me and kel who went to find the girls suffered from intestinal cramps. I was tired when i drove back, and luckily mark woke up, so he drove her there, to mount averner where i and yvonne tagged along, But he got to send the car back, so we went back to chalet to fetch my car and sin jyh tagged along. After injection, she got better, and we got back to chalet... i slept for 30mins, couldnt really sleep well and went to bathe baa baa.... then it was time to pack.... but Christina suffered again, and we decided to send her to SGH, where she was attached to. It was a hectic day, Siew Kee, Sher, Kel and Thow stayed with her while i pass the car back to my bro, when i reached hm, i just drop dead. At night, Christina got better, after 3 more injections... and they decided to come Hougang for dinner, i joined them and parted ways after that.

Cruise

Standard Dropped! Events vanished! i practically just ate two restaurants per meal and visit the casino on the Super Star Virgo, nth much else to do, but it was ok, not too boring, 1st time in a casino, played baccaret, a table game, and slots, which was digital. It doesnt help to rehab... i am tired after it...

Thursday, 21st June

Dam, i'm at fault again, fine, i know i could have msg them, but what to msg? 1st, i nv asked them to wait for me, 2nd, i told them to plan without me and that if i could go, i would, 3rd, i wasn't informed of the timeslots, which was quite terrible?, 4th, i'm at PS, to go bishan, i need some time, without knowing the timeslot, how am i supposed to actually plan for the journey? 5th, is it that easy to leave a grp of friends to join another? 6th, even if i could have gone, it will be that the grp i am with have nothing to do and decided to go back, how to say, i got to go... i'm going to watch movie with some other friends? when i'm the one that initiated the bday celebration, the one that planned and organised? it's like, guiding them into empty space?. 7th, why am i the one that get the shooting for these?, let me explain on this. On wed, they went sentosa, asked me along, my parents took leave, so i tot i could spend some time with them, there isn't much time to spend with parents on weekdays, and in my sec days, being hooked to computer, i decided that i want to spend time more time with them now, so i skipped it. On that night, KS asked to go Xiao Zhu's hse to play mahjong, i said ok, and he said he'll tell me when they reach there, so ok, i waited, i was waiting for so long, my hse felt so hot and i was hoping they would tell me, hey Ken, we're there, u can come now. But guess wat, i smsed ks around 11+ to ask, and he replied, ohh.. we're there already, playing already, so... ohh ok fine... he 4got about me or smt? how does that felt, but rather, i felt ok, maybe they got enuff players... and ponder whether i shud go. U see, they never bother telling me they reached when they say they would, so they must be enjoying the game already, and if i went, they may feel, hey, ken would be bored if he doesnt get to play, and leave their seat for me, i wouldnt want that, in the end, i was branded wat? dude, u 4got us when u got other grps. wth? my fault, fine, i didnt complain. If everything was so easy, if everything was so predictable and understandable, this world we're living wouldnt be called earth.

As it comes, it basically comes down as my fault or that i shud have done better. Why don people understand my stand as well? I face anger at some slightest of things, but to me, it's ok when it's over, i can bare it, but sometimes, i just couldnt do better, it's not possible to know everything, can i? it takes two hands to clap, two person to spread information, when one fails, i don think the other would have much of a clue. I can accept that i can just say i cannot make it earlier, but i tot, if my grp of friends are going home, maybe i could have call and ask for the time and make it there to watch with the other grp, even though the tickets may be of different seats. No one told me the timeslots, and i don expect to be fired for that, hell knows what time i could have been there. If they waited so long just for me which i know isn't a good experience, couldnt they call me? i seriously did not for any slightest of hints ask them to wait for me. Instead, i told them to go ahead without me. Yes, i appreciate the wait, but i wasnt informed like some headless chicken.

Anyway, today was Siew Kee's Bday, she doesnt have any plans to celebrate, parents busy and so on, so i tot we can celebrate for her. I was chatting with Sherilyn then ask she say ok as well, so we got on with it, i massed sms, chose to eat cafe cartel in PS and so on, it's harder to choose places nowadays, donno why, and got on with it. U know, i got a brillant sms from Hui Wen, i basically smsed 3 different messages, 1st is to ask whether they wanna go, 2nd was the time and place, 3rd was to meet earlier to buy cake and present baa baa. She didnt reply the 1st and 2nd, and when i sms the 3rd, she just say "not going, don need to sms me", stylish. It doesnt sound nice... but I'm fine with it, becoz we have our splits b4, becoz of Mark stuff, so i felt bad once for firing my temper at her, even though i knew what she said wasn't without substance, but it's none of our direct business and i knew Mark quite long. Ok, so the celebration went on, Singing without 1 2 3, so awkward! haha, but she doesnt mind i think, we bought a sleeping piglet for her, it was so cute! Hope she likes everything. After din, we went to play pool, and then some of us went changi for supper. Sherilyn's father got angry with her going hm late, hope everything is fine.

Driving

I passed my TP and got my driving lisence, it's amazing that all my friends that went to this particular grp of instructors all passed in their 1st attempt, a record to be proud of, a record that he uses to pressure us haha, it is fun to be able to drive now, more freedom at night, and convenient... My bro's going SMU, so i will be using the car more often i think, as it would be easier for him to take NEL to school.

TPGC

Performance at the esplanade, brillant. Good facilities... i have never gone to the esplanade before, and not many people can go to the backstage, so it's a experience to cherish. I don really find we played particularly well... especially as on the stage, we couldnt hear each other... quite amazing, becoz the audience can hear us loud and clear infront of us while we'r like in a barrier. But the comments from friends and relatives are great, they enjoyed it, and i enjoy performing and experiencing it as well.

Others

I wanted to slowly relate all the matters in better detail, but i think i'll leave it as such. Ohh ya, i lost my wallet, more like stolen though... and that person did not return my IC, driving lisence baa baa, think i lost 300 in all and Angie's fossil wallet present for me. Sadness, but it cant be helped.

Somethings are superficial

Kencsh blogged at 1:43 AM


	Momenories of Life "Momenories" meaning "Moments and Memories" Cherish the Moments Relish the Memories Kencsh NAME: Kenneth SEX: M DOB: 14/10/1988 LOCATION: Singapore (Hougang) Old Blog Day, Night, Dusk, Dawn, Life Continues Links Baz Darren Eugene Hui Ling Jane Jin Hui Jing En Joe Lydia NYP Guitar Club Sherilyn Suhaila Syarah Xin Ni Yvonne Zhi Xiong Archives January 2007 March 2007 April 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 March 2008 May 2008 December 2008 Tagboard Music Credits Skin by: sixseven Powered by: blogger		Friday, June 29, 2007 My father used to tell me that friends in this world are hard to come by, and that friends would betray you when troubles come about. That may be becoz he was betrayed before, but it's not totally untrue. When there's a common goal between two person, they are great friends, helping each other to reach the goal. Yet, when that goal disappears, it can be inevitable that the relationship changes, without a common goal, some people just don view that partner as a great friend anymore, and when some conflicts come about, it is the end of the friendship. How true is this? Are all humans selfish in nature? In the television, witty guys are often portrayed as successful, while the dumb as pitiful. In the television, bad guys are usually rich and successful, they can betray the world, harm everyone and gain that success. Only to fail in the end to retribution to have a nice ending. In the television, good guys will be shown, forcefully to betray their friends to preserve their rice bowl, the source of money, dreamed as endless happiness, realistically the core of evil. These sources teaches people to be "realistic". Which means, it is only right to think for yourself when troubles come, to save yourself when either has to perish. When we are young, the world look so innocent, you just snatch for toys, quarrel for justice and work your principles. But as we grow older, we value success much more and see wealth as having a nice life with lesser worries. So do all humans become more selfish as they grow older? Does the good get repaid with good deeds, and the bad retributions? Or Does the good get swallowed, and the bad, success? Poly teaches me a few things like snoozing, and laze on the bed as it gives u the happiness of sleeping which can be so desirable at times. Yet, with characters all around, it tends to show me the two sides of life. A group, a carefree group, never bothering about studies as much, feels that life are about being happy, and happy is about being carefree. Lazy at times, but always helping each other when exams comes about. Another, a success group, have fun when fun are due, and serious when work are due. Happy together when times are up, finding each other a burden when things are down. Never showing the schemes, but says some behind the curtains. Mixing with two groups questions something, which group would you like? which group do you belong? which group do you dread? which group do you like. In Poly, i have not been the serious guy i used to be in secondary school. I can accept and tolerate more things now. But it isn't necessary good. In Secondary, i'm a serious guy, quite no nonsense, lives on my principles, do wrong things? scold, need help? help, bad character? go to hell. Basically imposing my character and principles in my group of friends In Poly, i'm a go along, there are some people i wouldnt even bother talking to if i were in my sec days, becoz i would have rated their personality, but i do now. I don really care what they are doing, and i don bother rating their doings. They think it's right, it's right, if it's wrong, it's wrong. I couldn't really be bothered much, i would only try to appease everyone to the best i can. The difference? the friends i have in secondary perhaps knows me more in depth, while some poly friends i feel, wouldnt be as close after graduation. And i think that's why some people tells me they prefer secondary school days more... Secondary school pretty much gives students a common goal, the O'levels, not much conflict, you play as a class, you study as a class. Poly is more to groups or individuals... My mentality broke down for awhile in Year 2, so much so that i needed to feel some support (which results in a fallout). Somehow, some friends in Poly just gives you this insecure feeling, that they would be ready to heck care if really, one day, a serious problem come about. And it shows during group work or exams. I'm in both groups i said above, closer to the latter group, but when exams come, the latter would view the other group as a burden, and will be great to avoid them. So i'm quite sandwiched. Only in fine time can both groups be together, weird isn't it? Fine, happy together, fun together, Exams, enemies? Thats why i'm confused, i'm closer to them, but i dislike some of the personality. Will i be the same? or am i already the same? i hope not, and pray not. What my father said isn't without any truth, but when times are good, everything will be good, when times are bad, we'll see... Today, it's funny, the term "realistic" actually becomes hostile. We were doing a report, a 100 pages report. I'm doing alone, my partner went to msia -.-" and my other two friends are a group, we did in one of their house. There were some glimpses of self content, like, hiding? I tot we were supposed to do together, anyway, i don mind people actually seeing and copying my work, i would happily help, but when such hints shows up when i just take alittle look, it kicks me a little. It's like, you HELP them before, and they wouldnt even SHARE things with you now. Thats why i wrote this article. I'm not angry, but alittle disappointed. They started the don help u thingy as a joke, but that also means that it came across their mind, even at the slightest. I would say, not both, but at least one of them have this selfish personality. What does it tells you when someone finish the work 1st, send to the teacher and friends through email without filtering both? Work shouldnt be copied, and so shouldnt be referenced, no one asked for it, but as the way he sent, it seemingly says, hey, i'm the original - to the teacher. Maybe it's me thinking too much into little stuffs, but it isn't hard to think of that in the teacher's shoes? isn't it? i would have considered that and if my friends wants to reference, i would send them in BCC. Kencsh blogged at 11:05 PM Thursday, June 21, 2007 I'm back! After two months which can be described as the "hectic-est" poly life i have ever experienced. I have passed my driving lisence and lose it almost immediately, i have not touched my guitar as often as i used to which many of my friends would wow me, i have experience being a performer in the esplanade concert hall which is supposedly the best in singapore, i have realised that it isn't easy to be at the helm of things without planning for it. There're so much for me to write on in these two months which time doesnt allow me during then, as much as i would have love to have them written down, my brain wouldn't allow me to store every detail in my "pea-like" memory... Especially this year, i am those kind of people that pressure and stress out myself easily on things, and when i have more responsibilities, coupled by a specific Sherilyn who spreads her STM disease to me :/, my memory is like so terrible now! i could forget what i said 5minutes ago, scary yea? haha... i need to grad soon and take a care-free break! I'm in my two weeks examination break now, i have a test next week which i havent studied, neither did i do my 100 pages report or interview related stuffs that has to be done within these two weeks. I just tried to rest myself, but failed to do so. Examination Break It started off with camp guitare, NYP Guitar Club's camp and a 3D2N chalet. It should be the 1st ever, at least the 1st in my 2years+ stay in NYP. I have wanted this all along, because the time spent between seniors and juniors in the past few years hasn't been great, we would probably know each other only during our annual concert, La Guitare. To be honest, i felt my batch was fortunate, we got close to each other near the 05 concert, thanks to batch 9 seniors (we're batch 11) and Huiwen who is such a chatterbox! But when batch 9 grad-ed, batch 10 suddenly suffered a lost of membership, whereby their active members were in the single digit. So i think it was hard for the committee, to plan stuffs, as i have experienced now, Year 3 isn't the same as 1 and 2, you have more work which gets you busy most of the time, and if u have gotten used to Year 1 and 2's lifestyle, you'r in some depthless hole. So i felt and realised Batch 12 was suffering, there donno each other well even after the concert, many are in their small groups which i felt shouldnt be the case. That's why i visioned such an event just after the Enrichment Course. Traditionally, NYP Guitar Club enjoys a high appeal to students as people nowadays are keen on learning music. That's the reason i joined as well - to learn, i did not have any background before then. So there'll probably be around 150 people who join the Enrichment Course. But, as we all know, much as we would love to be able to play or create music - because we feel emotionally for music, it doesn't come just like that, it takes time and practice to be able to play music well, so some people would give up, thinking they aren't cut out for it or that their interest just diminished, prefering to do other stuffs. So i felt we could do something to help encourage them during their learning process, till they are able to achieve what they intended as they join the club. So the camp is for them to get to know each other better, and with that bond, gives them a sense of belonging towards the club, and at the same time, exposing them to guitar, what can they all learn together in this club, ensemble, solo, quartet etc. So that they would have an idea where they can be and do in 2 - 3 years. I couldnt plan for the camp though, there were reasons, 1st, i was tight up with my stuffs, ICAs in school which i could easily over stress myself out and the esplanade performance with TPGC which i skipped 3 practice sessions and found myself struggling. 2nd, it was meant for the batch 12 to plan, but they'r so splitted up. 3rd, they formed the layout and the only thing that needed more planning was the games, and my friends like the games more, so i didnt want to interrupt them. Eventually, the camp turned out quite messy, but i'm sure some of us will find fun out of it, being the 1st, it will only be better. The chalet was at the senior police academy mass, Hui Wen's father booked it for us, an unique experience, don think many people could have gotten that place, cheap and not too run down at all. Just deserted. i'm the CD, Cab Driver or smt, we did shopping and so on, makan stuff baa baa, it was fun nevertheless. Thursday early morning, near midnight, one of my friend went drinking and her friend called to fetch her back, so i went... Sin Jyh, Christina, Kelvin followed me. Once we reached there, she didnt want to go, saying she wanna stay with her friend -.-" so why did she just laugh when her friend ask us to fetch her back? after a long tussle, we tot ok, we head back, but as i was going back, i tot, they drank, it wouldnt be nice if two of them, both girls stayed there, so i went back and asked to fetch her friend hm 1st, then bring her back to chalet. It was a joke really, she had earlier told me she going to accompany a friend who has trouble, but she ended up looking more drank, fine, everyone has their own troubles, money, friends, bgr, family baa baa, but we don have to do that right? why cant they be stronger? is it the TV that we tend to learn from? I eventually got quite fed up, i felt that it was dumb and got of with some scolding.. why cant her friend go hm with us? and everything will be fine? how can she expect her best friend to leave with us, and she, alone out there? and the other, keep saying she wanna vomit, as though i have nv drink b4, the way she is doesnt show me she will vomit at all. So i am facing lies, and silence when i enquire about the stuffs, everyone got their problems... take it in ur stride! maybe i learned last time, and so it's easier for me now, i hope they will be more sobber next time, spend time doing better stuffs. She explained why her friend donwanna lemme send her back, she say... back pain, but her friend walked away from us for quite a distance, till she disappeared, quite amazing right -.-" donno how to believe. Just an account. We eventually brought her back, and Christina, who drank half a breezer from Sin Jyh when waiting for me and kel who went to find the girls suffered from intestinal cramps. I was tired when i drove back, and luckily mark woke up, so he drove her there, to mount averner where i and yvonne tagged along, But he got to send the car back, so we went back to chalet to fetch my car and sin jyh tagged along. After injection, she got better, and we got back to chalet... i slept for 30mins, couldnt really sleep well and went to bathe baa baa.... then it was time to pack.... but Christina suffered again, and we decided to send her to SGH, where she was attached to. It was a hectic day, Siew Kee, Sher, Kel and Thow stayed with her while i pass the car back to my bro, when i reached hm, i just drop dead. At night, Christina got better, after 3 more injections... and they decided to come Hougang for dinner, i joined them and parted ways after that. Cruise Standard Dropped! Events vanished! i practically just ate two restaurants per meal and visit the casino on the Super Star Virgo, nth much else to do, but it was ok, not too boring, 1st time in a casino, played baccaret, a table game, and slots, which was digital. It doesnt help to rehab... i am tired after it... Thursday, 21st June Dam, i'm at fault again, fine, i know i could have msg them, but what to msg? 1st, i nv asked them to wait for me, 2nd, i told them to plan without me and that if i could go, i would, 3rd, i wasn't informed of the timeslots, which was quite terrible?, 4th, i'm at PS, to go bishan, i need some time, without knowing the timeslot, how am i supposed to actually plan for the journey? 5th, is it that easy to leave a grp of friends to join another? 6th, even if i could have gone, it will be that the grp i am with have nothing to do and decided to go back, how to say, i got to go... i'm going to watch movie with some other friends? when i'm the one that initiated the bday celebration, the one that planned and organised? it's like, guiding them into empty space?. 7th, why am i the one that get the shooting for these?, let me explain on this. On wed, they went sentosa, asked me along, my parents took leave, so i tot i could spend some time with them, there isn't much time to spend with parents on weekdays, and in my sec days, being hooked to computer, i decided that i want to spend time more time with them now, so i skipped it. On that night, KS asked to go Xiao Zhu's hse to play mahjong, i said ok, and he said he'll tell me when they reach there, so ok, i waited, i was waiting for so long, my hse felt so hot and i was hoping they would tell me, hey Ken, we're there, u can come now. But guess wat, i smsed ks around 11+ to ask, and he replied, ohh.. we're there already, playing already, so... ohh ok fine... he 4got about me or smt? how does that felt, but rather, i felt ok, maybe they got enuff players... and ponder whether i shud go. U see, they never bother telling me they reached when they say they would, so they must be enjoying the game already, and if i went, they may feel, hey, ken would be bored if he doesnt get to play, and leave their seat for me, i wouldnt want that, in the end, i was branded wat? dude, u 4got us when u got other grps. wth? my fault, fine, i didnt complain. If everything was so easy, if everything was so predictable and understandable, this world we're living wouldnt be called earth. As it comes, it basically comes down as my fault or that i shud have done better. Why don people understand my stand as well? I face anger at some slightest of things, but to me, it's ok when it's over, i can bare it, but sometimes, i just couldnt do better, it's not possible to know everything, can i? it takes two hands to clap, two person to spread information, when one fails, i don think the other would have much of a clue. I can accept that i can just say i cannot make it earlier, but i tot, if my grp of friends are going home, maybe i could have call and ask for the time and make it there to watch with the other grp, even though the tickets may be of different seats. No one told me the timeslots, and i don expect to be fired for that, hell knows what time i could have been there. If they waited so long just for me which i know isn't a good experience, couldnt they call me? i seriously did not for any slightest of hints ask them to wait for me. Instead, i told them to go ahead without me. Yes, i appreciate the wait, but i wasnt informed like some headless chicken. Anyway, today was Siew Kee's Bday, she doesnt have any plans to celebrate, parents busy and so on, so i tot we can celebrate for her. I was chatting with Sherilyn then ask she say ok as well, so we got on with it, i massed sms, chose to eat cafe cartel in PS and so on, it's harder to choose places nowadays, donno why, and got on with it. U know, i got a brillant sms from Hui Wen, i basically smsed 3 different messages, 1st is to ask whether they wanna go, 2nd was the time and place, 3rd was to meet earlier to buy cake and present baa baa. She didnt reply the 1st and 2nd, and when i sms the 3rd, she just say "not going, don need to sms me", stylish. It doesnt sound nice... but I'm fine with it, becoz we have our splits b4, becoz of Mark stuff, so i felt bad once for firing my temper at her, even though i knew what she said wasn't without substance, but it's none of our direct business and i knew Mark quite long. Ok, so the celebration went on, Singing without 1 2 3, so awkward! haha, but she doesnt mind i think, we bought a sleeping piglet for her, it was so cute! Hope she likes everything. After din, we went to play pool, and then some of us went changi for supper. Sherilyn's father got angry with her going hm late, hope everything is fine. Driving I passed my TP and got my driving lisence, it's amazing that all my friends that went to this particular grp of instructors all passed in their 1st attempt, a record to be proud of, a record that he uses to pressure us haha, it is fun to be able to drive now, more freedom at night, and convenient... My bro's going SMU, so i will be using the car more often i think, as it would be easier for him to take NEL to school. TPGC Performance at the esplanade, brillant. Good facilities... i have never gone to the esplanade before, and not many people can go to the backstage, so it's a experience to cherish. I don really find we played particularly well... especially as on the stage, we couldnt hear each other... quite amazing, becoz the audience can hear us loud and clear infront of us while we'r like in a barrier. But the comments from friends and relatives are great, they enjoyed it, and i enjoy performing and experiencing it as well. Others I wanted to slowly relate all the matters in better detail, but i think i'll leave it as such. Ohh ya, i lost my wallet, more like stolen though... and that person did not return my IC, driving lisence baa baa, think i lost 300 in all and Angie's fossil wallet present for me. Sadness, but it cant be helped. Somethings are superficial Kencsh blogged at 1:43 AM